The Road to Awe

The last few weeks have seemingly been shrouded by death. What I'm reading in my Bible challange, the media, my personal life, the movies I'm watching, conversation, etc. I know it's certain and I know it happens, but it makes me reflect on my own mortality and then on my own road beyond death and "into awe".

A couple of weekends ago I watched "The Fountain" with Nick, Adam and Jessica. The entire movie surrounded the idea of being afraid of death and dying and then finally what the purpose of dying truly was. The movie was very obviously not Christian, but had some very serious Christian and religious undertones. The female character comes to terms with her own death and realizes that what she's discovering is her Road to Awe.

Is that what the journey death should be for us? The road to discovering the awesome-ness of God? Amidst the beauty of the the cinematography of the film, I couldn't help but notice the sadness and the lack of fulfillment that the characters felt and the darkness that it portrayed. Constantly striving for more time, more years, more understanding--when the one thing that they were avoiding was what could bring them the greatest fulfillment.

I am afraid of death most of the time. I'm afraid of losing, pain and suffering. Although, in my life there have been glimpses of what death is or should be. My mom taught me this lesson about living and dying. I had the blessing of watching her pass, which sounds morbid--but it wasn't. It was peaceful, terribly sad, but relieving. Prior to her death she told us she wanted the song "Celebration" played at her funeral. I think that is the most beautiful picture of fulfillment. She knew what this world had to offer her...in the end nothing. Yes, she would miss us and wanted to see us grow up...but what would the lasting effect of that be? Nothing, or at least nothing compared to the enjoyment of Heaven and eternal life.

We need restoration, we need a road to awe, we need death but most importantly, we need Jesus.